Begitulah Adanya...

The news started to trickle in last friday. The floodgates opened on Sunday morning. The verdict was confirmed last night when I called the other accomplice. Well, I didn't get the formal confirmation yet but normally "Jika sekiranya anda tidak mendapat sebarang jawapan selepas 6 bulan, permohonan anda adalah dikira gagal". It's almost time, so I should be expecting that decision.

I have this feeling something is not going well eversince they called off the interview at the last minutes (240 minutes to be exact) the day I arrived from overseas last January. The interview in January supposed to be for "Tahap Satu". Last month when I wrote an e-mail to person-in-charge, the answer was I am being upgraded to "Tahap Dua". They are going to review my application. Now I am going to miss both! How on earth they come to conclude that is beyond my brain to compute.

Dissapointed? Not a little bit. Somehow I pity those who have to make the decision to be a MAN to support my application or a "***" who obeys his master. Regret? None so ever. Now I know who are (or may be IS??) my real friend(s). Most are just faces that I should forget when I return later. They have just ranked me below those non-technical staff. That shows how bad I am eventhough they gave me AKC twice. Hard feelings? I have no feelings right now. If they have done anything wrong (I hope not) I already forgave them. They made me realize nothing is fair in this world except Allah Almighty! I hope I can screw that into my brain for the rest of my life...

My only wish: they read this entry!!! FAT CHANCE. Ha ha ha!

Kata saya...Life is short, too short to be bitter. Saya kata...Macam iklan Habib Jewel, saya ingat sampai mati.